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dear dearly,

hi how was the day? i did hit the wall and took the car to the service station immediately, lol. i was avoiding mom and dad's anxious, but the side effect is, i'm little bit more careless of driving my genny! yesterday i did the rear view mirror hit the fence twice, genny and mom's car. and dad saw it and he just screamed here and there, that was scary. lol. i think that i'm become nervous of driving car, i mean become more, than ever. i don't know.

and well ya, I curse a lot during riding, cars and trucks and motorcycles are become resent. oh gosh, i hope it wouldn't last forever!

talking about riding, i always remember dad's line he always say to me, " be safe! "

do you know what first thing on my head after heard that? " uhm. it means he protect me or the car? " lol

and another point of 'be safe!' ... i'm wondering, how sad you will be, if i died or something?

ah ya kinda terrify thought, but my curious is on max! lol

because, mostly, somebody will perceived so dear after he/she leaves. hm ya, you know I won't leave you... that's why what i'm wondering is about death. how will you do? 

ahh yaa... i remember, i've ever asked you about this, and you said you'll join my death. lol. and you said it with a little tickle, a little laugh. hi you, i asked you seriously.

well it's nerd. cause I ever told you that I hate death. i hate somebody i loved leaved me... ya it's so suck. i hate being alone, know it ya? and now just wondering, what if you should feel that, do you feel as suck as i feel or less or more? lol. mean it, i'm absolutely wondering!

but ya... I always ask God to not separate us. i can't. He knows I can't too. lol

but i always believe if things or somebody destined belong to us, they won't leave, God won't take, and universe will keep us staying.... and another thing i ask God is, that you're one of my numerous beloved, won't ever leave. amen :)

love you :)